HER


Compose letter to Catherine.

"Dear Catherine. I’ve been sitting here thinking about all the things I wanted to apologize to you for. All the pain we caused each other, everything I put on you. Everything I needed you to be or needed you to say. I’m sorry for that. I’ll always love you because we grew up together, and you helped make me who I am. I just wanted you to know there’ll be a piece of you in me always, and I’m grateful for that. Whatever someone you become, and wherever you are in the world, I’m sending you love. You’re my friend till the end. Love, Theodore."

Send.

Querida Catherine :

He estado sentado aquí pensando en todas las cosas por las que quiero disculparme, todo el dolor que nos causamos mutuamente, de todo por lo que te culpe , todo lo que necesitaba que fueras o dijeras ... lamento eso.

Siempre te amaré por que crecimos juntos y me ayudaste a ser quien soy, solo queria que supieras que siempre habra una parte tuya dentro de mi y estoy agradecido por eso.

Solo quiero que sepas que en quien sea que te conviertas y donde sea que te encuentres en este mundo , te envio mi amor, eres mi amiga hasta el final .

Con Amor

Theodore

Las cosas amadas PERMANECEN...

Tortuguero, Costa Rica.

July 2019

Still involved...


"Sometimes I think I've felt everything I'm ever gonna feel
and from now all my feelings are just a lesser version of something I've already felt"

I'm lying on the moon
My dear, I'll be there soon
It's a quiet and starry place
Time's we're swallowed up
In space we're here a million miles away

There's things I wish I knew

There's no thing I'd keep from you
It's a dark and shiny place
But with you my dear
I'm safe and we're a million miles away

We're lying on the moon

It's a perfect afternoon
Your shadow follows me all day
Making sure that I'm
Okay and we're a million miles away...

Rue Vielle Du Temple... 

You are moving and change of color

I marked your name in the crust of my being.

Fighting with demons again

they always attack me when i'm more tired

And it's when you look at me from there

smiling to me, you make me come back to you

You know well my hability to fly

to ramble between the worlds

You are erasing with the crowd

i can see the little dots against the sky

and when i tight my eyes i see your voice

fantastic, geometric, multicolor

And it's when you look at me from there

and smiling to me you make me come back to you

You know well my hability to fly

to ramble between the worlds

You make me fly

You make me dream

You make me feel quiet in the darkness

You make me feel

You make me cry

You make me feel that doesn't exist gravity anymore

You make me laugh

You make me sing 

You make me step the ground of reality

Seated, face to face

and find each other...

You make me fly

You make me dream

You make me feel that there is hope once more

And when i feel bad

Or when i lose the way

You make me step the ground of reality

Seated, face to face

and find each other again...

HOME

Peaceful like an ocean before the storm

I am floating down the causeway

To the sound of a silent stream

In the middle of nowhere

Dancing inside my mind and in my head

She is moving like a flower

And the touch of her lips on mine

Another lonely departure

Migrate in the search for another place

Another dream to delve into

It's no good to hang behind

With your future at hand

Dominated by a force that is not mine

In the search of realistic tendencies

I'll return to this place again

To see your quivering body

And as our thoughts collide

I wish my self away

So far away

Into this haven

This corrupted place that we call home

I curse the moment that I left you a million times

For now I'm safe

For now I'm safe

But what about tomorrow?

Helpless we are lost inside ourselves

Chasing fake realities

Once your fate has turned around

Who will you turn to yourself?

Disillusioned I am breaking out of here

Leaving everything behind

Carry your smile within my heart

While I melt into the night

And as our thoughts collide

I wish my self away

So far away

Into this haven

This corrupted place that we call home

I curse the moment that I left you a million times

For now I'm safe

For now I'm safe

But what about tomorrow?

LOVE...

This is the way it should be...